Sometimes I feel like I’m alone in this world

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Or lonely…

But you know what?

I don’t care that I’m alone in this world. It’s a beautiful world. The sea sparkles, the mountains peak out, and the sun that shines in my room every morning is something that I deserve. It’s something that I’m allowed to have…

To have a little bit of time to appreciate something that only grows in size with every day that passes. It’s like time is an illusion, a beautiful, magical thing built on a foundation made from pure magic. So when I see time in this light, I can appreciate it because I know that it can’t ever be broken. Even the smallest of the small, that’s so small that it could fit into the smallest of the smallest spaces on a piece of paper.

It’s like a gift from heaven. It’s like magic. It just always feels as though one more day is never enough. I wake up one morning and realize it’s my birthday. This is the year I’m going to be thirty.

Or thirty-one.

I’m not sure which of these scenarios happened first.

I’m not even sure how I was thinking about thirty when I said to myself, “Happy birthday to me, I’m thirty!” because even when I was young, I didn’t know what the word actually meant. It seems like when I was a little girl, I was always telling myself that I was gonna live to be a year older. In my mind, that meant one year older than my actual age. But I knew that I would never age that much. That’s why I told myself I would live as long as I was healthy. There was no way I was going to die, so why would I live as long as I was healthy?

Of course, the reality of this world is a lot more complicated. I realize that it’s quite possible that I will live much longer than I ever imagined. In other words, I can die one day before I’m a year older than I really am, or much, much longer. It’s quite possible that I will live a long, long time.

The one thing I know for sure is that I will live.

And, more importantly, I have the ability to live a very, very long time.

This ability is what I wish I could share with the people I love and the people around me.

This ability is the only thing that’s ever going to make me happy.

This ability is the only thing that can save my life.

This ability is the one thing that I am ever going to be thankful for…

You see, people who are happy can live a very long time. They don’t have to go through life wondering what they’re going to do the day they’re supposed to get married. They don’t have to worry about what they’re going to do with the rest of their lives, because they know that they can live a very long time because they have this magic ability.

But they don’t have to remember that magic ability every day, every minute of their lives. They don’t have to remember it in between the other little things that keep them going…

I don’t know about you, but I’m getting dizzy from the sound of my own speech. It just seems impossible for me to be able to write even a few sentences without having to pay conscious attention to every word that is put into my mouth. That’s why I wanted to start this blog. Because I want to share my life with you. I want to show you that magic is a gift, and that even the smallest miracles can take on the biggest names in the world. I want to be able to help you feel like a miracle.

So I’ve put every single one of my thoughts down on paper. When you read my words, you not only get to feel that magic, you get the ability to share it with the world.

That’s the reason I started this blog. To be able to give the world something that the world didn’t get before. Something that the world has never been given a chance to experience.

So now, you’re in my world…

It’s the world that you’re free to write about. The world that you’re able to create. The world that you can share with you loved ones.

I love it here.

I started the blog because I knew I wanted to share something with all of the people who would be inspired by the experiences that I’ve been living since I was a kid. So now I have the ability to share that same magic to the world…

It’s a little crazy how much magic I have when you’re standing in your living room at exactly 1:59am when you’re staring into the middle of a new adventure that you’re about to embark.

There are times when I can see what’s happening. When I see this tiny little thing that is changing. When I see this tiny little thing that is becoming.

I can see myself, and I see you. And it’s one of the most beautiful things.

There is magic and a miracle that took place on that very same day that I was staring into this amazing new adventure in my life that I’m about to take.

There is magic that happened in the middle of the night where I was so lost that I had no idea where to go to find myself.

There is magic that took place in the depths of my heart, where I was lost in my own world for years. There is magic that happened in the darkest hours that I will never forget.

There is magic that was created when I found you in that very same moment that I saw those tiny creatures that were trying to escape my home…

When I saw the tiny white light around my feet, and I said good-bye to my life as I was about to walk to the door and into that new chapter in my life where I would find who I was supposed to be…

When I heard the tiny sounds of “happy birthday” that I heard every time I woke up that morning, and I said them again right before I stepped into the door.

When I saw the tiny creature that was escaping my home that very same morning.

When I saw the smile on the face of a beautiful girl in the very same moment that I was going to begin to change my world forever…

When I found myself…

That very same day, because that’s what magic is…

Magic is the ability to change your world…

Magic is the ability to see the possibilities that every single person has.

Magic is the ability to be a miracle when we’re least expecting it, but we always expect it…

Magic is the ability to see that beauty in every single day, every single moment, in the deepest darkness…

Magic is what takes that magic and puts it into words that we can understand.

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